#MyLifeIn5Words

It seems like many of my blog posts seem to be inspired by things I read on Twitter.  I saw the hashtag MyLifeIn5Words.  

Happy.... Grateful... Loved... Excited.... Hopeful 

At the moment, those five words seem to sum me up best.  I don't know that I would have used those same five words a year ago and maybe not a few months ago.  I am finally starting to learn to cope with my brothers murder.  I know I will never truly get over it, but I have found ways to manage the anxiety and loss.  I think I am finally seeing my life with direction and purpose.  I feel that is largely in part to all of wonderful people I am surrounded by.  There are those I have known a lifetime and others barely a moment, but all have had a positive impact.  

Happy: Adjective Feeling or showing pleasure or contentment. Having a sense of confidence in or satisfaction with (a person, arrangement, or situation).

Synonyms glad - fortunate - joyful - lucky - merry - cheerful I am happy that I have a feeling of purpose, and that I am no longer consumed with anger and hate.   Grateful:

Adjective Feeling or showing an appreciation of kindness; thankful.

Synonyms thankful - appreciative - beholden I am so very grateful to my family and friends so standing by me the last few years.  I know it hasn't been easy and I was exhausting to deal with.  You are loved and appreciated more than you may ever know.   Love:

Noun An intense feeling of deep affection: "their love for their country".

Synonyms

noun.

affection - fondness - darling - passion

I finally feel loved and I have built deep trust in several relationships.  I lost the feeling of being loved and my security in relationships following Brandon's murder.  I wasn't sure I would ever be able to truly trust anyone, and trust is paramount in any relationship.  

Excited:

Adjective

Very enthusiastic and eager.  

Synonyms
elicit, enkindle, evoke

I have so many exciting things happening in my life.  I finished a Tough Mudder in the fall (and holy cow was it tough, mentally and physically).  I have a few big races coming up and I want to run a full marathon by fall.  I love to watch my son grow and develop day by day into an independent, kind, and well-manner "little man."  Bluegrass Junior Woman's Club is always doing incredible things in our local community and I am excited to see what the future holds for our group.  My new friends at Shot@Life have inspired me already and I am looking forward to working with all of them.  

Hopeful:

Adjective

Feeling or inspiring optimism about a future event.

Synonyms

promising - sanguine - up-and-coming

I feel like there are so many promising projects and opportunities just on the horizon.  I have both a mission and a purpose, I am not sure I had previously.  I am hopeful that the coming months and year bring more inspiration and healing.  

Happy Tuesday!  

XOXO

~Jess